Allocation for Gem 7 was finally out this morning...
Sadly to say... I only have 1 item...
I'm really quite sad... and pissed..
OK... i know im still a caterpillar... and that my dance is not really that strong or good..
but i still feel that it is really unfair to just have one item..
whats more.... is the opening item... not really a "real item"
there's lyk... 50 pple who are in that item..
and guess what... training starts tmr.
can't wait..... NOT...
its like a bit of a waste of time... to me that is...
going for traings for only 1 item and if it so happens that the timing for training is like...
not here not there... i will have to give up a lot of important things...
All for ONE item's practice..
And thay told us that we will only get one item if our attendence does not meet the requirements and that if out GPA is less than 1.8
My attendance met requirements and my GPA is higher thatn that...
SO WHY DID I ONLY GET 1 ITEM?!
I know i should'nt complain... but still...
I think ryan allocated the dancers quite bias-ly
popular pple have like 4 items... and ALOT, not only me, only have one
Don't really have the mood to go for dance anymore..
Sunday, 15 January 2012
Saturday, 24 December 2011
tired~
i only have one word left to describe myself and my feelings: TIRED this holiday isn't even a proper holiday. It can't even have the honour of being called a holiday.
My whole day is filled with work, dance, individual projects, group projects, and even more group projects.
Sucks To The Maximum
I haven't even started on my individual projects yet. And I have 3 days left to complete them.
How wonderful.
I really can't wait till my family goes to Turi Beach, Indonesia!
It's going to be just sun, sand, sea and me. Haha. Well... I wish for the 'sun' part
I'm also easily pissed off these few days... so you all should know what to do...
Get the hell away from me and don't even think of irritating or annoying me.
You are just looking for death if you do that.
Now, I'm going to write about a childish complaint.
I was supposed to go out on the 22nd of December to catch a movie (Mission Impossible!!!) and to hang out with my clique. We always don't have the chance to go out as a whole clique cause all our freetime always clashes. So this time, we decided to settle on a date like really really early so that we can all go out together! Who knows... A few days before, my mum had to tell me that we needed to go temple to pray on the 22nd cause it is 'dong zi'. I was hoping that I could go out after that. So when I asked her whether I could, she told me the one thing that totally pissed me off and ruined my entire mood for the day. She said: " You everyday also go out stay at home one day will die is it"
Fuck. I mean seriously. During the hols, other than going out for ONE time, the rest was spent in school doing all my projects. And it's not like she didm't know. She even send and fetched me to and from school. So why the fuck do you not allow me to go?
I was really pissed. And really sad. I saw on Facebook that my clique had an awesome time. And that the movie was great :( oh well.... it all boils down to my luck. It Sucks.
Anyway its over, i just have to meet them when school reopens!! MISS THEM!!
My whole day is filled with work, dance, individual projects, group projects, and even more group projects.
Sucks To The Maximum
I haven't even started on my individual projects yet. And I have 3 days left to complete them.
How wonderful.
I really can't wait till my family goes to Turi Beach, Indonesia!
It's going to be just sun, sand, sea and me. Haha. Well... I wish for the 'sun' part
I'm also easily pissed off these few days... so you all should know what to do...
Get the hell away from me and don't even think of irritating or annoying me.
You are just looking for death if you do that.
Now, I'm going to write about a childish complaint.
I was supposed to go out on the 22nd of December to catch a movie (Mission Impossible!!!) and to hang out with my clique. We always don't have the chance to go out as a whole clique cause all our freetime always clashes. So this time, we decided to settle on a date like really really early so that we can all go out together! Who knows... A few days before, my mum had to tell me that we needed to go temple to pray on the 22nd cause it is 'dong zi'. I was hoping that I could go out after that. So when I asked her whether I could, she told me the one thing that totally pissed me off and ruined my entire mood for the day. She said: " You everyday also go out stay at home one day will die is it"
Fuck. I mean seriously. During the hols, other than going out for ONE time, the rest was spent in school doing all my projects. And it's not like she didm't know. She even send and fetched me to and from school. So why the fuck do you not allow me to go?
I was really pissed. And really sad. I saw on Facebook that my clique had an awesome time. And that the movie was great :( oh well.... it all boils down to my luck. It Sucks.
Anyway its over, i just have to meet them when school reopens!! MISS THEM!!
Thursday, 24 November 2011
Paranoia
Oh no... ...
Why does it seems to me like after I talked to my friend about my thoughts of her being very close with another guy, she have kind off distanced herself from me. She is actually a very cheerful girl. Really sociable and... Happy-go-lucky. But she suddenly became so quiet.
Is it my fault? Or am I just being paranoid?
But then, I can't seem to figure out why she isn't talking to me as much. I only stated my opinions on that topic cause I'm afraid for her that others might talk. And I did apologise if was going overboard about it.
Maybe I should just wait a few days to see if she really is annoyed with me and is shunning away. I really hope not though. I truly like her. Or maybe, think back to see if I really did say anything to make her feel insulted or... ... something.
At Least just make sure that our friendship will not be scarred by this.
Why does it seems to me like after I talked to my friend about my thoughts of her being very close with another guy, she have kind off distanced herself from me. She is actually a very cheerful girl. Really sociable and... Happy-go-lucky. But she suddenly became so quiet.
Is it my fault? Or am I just being paranoid?
But then, I can't seem to figure out why she isn't talking to me as much. I only stated my opinions on that topic cause I'm afraid for her that others might talk. And I did apologise if was going overboard about it.
Maybe I should just wait a few days to see if she really is annoyed with me and is shunning away. I really hope not though. I truly like her. Or maybe, think back to see if I really did say anything to make her feel insulted or... ... something.
At Least just make sure that our friendship will not be scarred by this.
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
when will the time be right?
I really don't know why... but i just can't seem to stop myself from being jealous or envious when i see my friends together with their One. I will keep thinking of how sweet they are together and how nice it must be to have someone share your joys and sadness, to have someone to text to everyday, someone to call to without feeling guilty for doing so. To share all the memories, both good and bad.
All these makes me want to be in a relationship so that i can also experience those special feelings that you will not get if you are single. But, after thinking through everything, I will start to see the downs of being in a relationship. I won't get as much freedom as I am getting now. And once the sweet period is over, quarrels and argues will soon to come. Everyday is simply a living nightmare. No sweet memories, not even bittersweet ones. All that clouds your mind are the times where you get angry and depressed over Him.Then within a blink of an eye, you're back to being a free catch again.
Anyway, even if i really close an eye to all the negative things of relationships and want to carry on with being in one, I also can't. I mean, it isn't really as simple as a snap. You can't just be in a relationship cause you want to. You still need to wait for the right One. And how would you know? You might wait your entire life and he will never appear. Fate. It all boils down to Fate. During that period of waiting, people might still get into relationships - or rather flings - but to me, those are just... ... pointless. I won't even go into a relationship if I don't have feelings Him. That, is just plain dumb.
What to do? I just have to carry on being envious and wait for My Right One. <3
All these makes me want to be in a relationship so that i can also experience those special feelings that you will not get if you are single. But, after thinking through everything, I will start to see the downs of being in a relationship. I won't get as much freedom as I am getting now. And once the sweet period is over, quarrels and argues will soon to come. Everyday is simply a living nightmare. No sweet memories, not even bittersweet ones. All that clouds your mind are the times where you get angry and depressed over Him.Then within a blink of an eye, you're back to being a free catch again.
Anyway, even if i really close an eye to all the negative things of relationships and want to carry on with being in one, I also can't. I mean, it isn't really as simple as a snap. You can't just be in a relationship cause you want to. You still need to wait for the right One. And how would you know? You might wait your entire life and he will never appear. Fate. It all boils down to Fate. During that period of waiting, people might still get into relationships - or rather flings - but to me, those are just... ... pointless. I won't even go into a relationship if I don't have feelings Him. That, is just plain dumb.
What to do? I just have to carry on being envious and wait for My Right One. <3
Monday, 21 November 2011
un-understandable
I really don't understand how can someone be in a relationship with a person, and yet still be so close with another. It confuses me, really. The way I see it, it feels like the friend is more like the one she is in a relationship with...
Meeting up with her boyfriend once a week and meeting the friend everyday. Calling him up to ask how he is, what's he doing. Everything just seems so... ... confusing. Thinking about all the times she shared with him is like looking at the memories of a very loving couple.
But to me, I just wish that the world wasn't like this. I know that not everyone is like that but come to think of it, I actually do have many friends who behaves the exac same way. This is where misunderstandings come along, the trust that was once built so soundly is slowly crumbling back down. Nothing will ever be the same again. Even if the other party were to say that they will not be bothered by this degree of closeness of friendship, deep down inside, he really cares. If I were you, I would really try to keep everything to a minimum, spend more time with Him than with him.
I know its not my position to talk, but i just wish......
Meeting up with her boyfriend once a week and meeting the friend everyday. Calling him up to ask how he is, what's he doing. Everything just seems so... ... confusing. Thinking about all the times she shared with him is like looking at the memories of a very loving couple.
But to me, I just wish that the world wasn't like this. I know that not everyone is like that but come to think of it, I actually do have many friends who behaves the exac same way. This is where misunderstandings come along, the trust that was once built so soundly is slowly crumbling back down. Nothing will ever be the same again. Even if the other party were to say that they will not be bothered by this degree of closeness of friendship, deep down inside, he really cares. If I were you, I would really try to keep everything to a minimum, spend more time with Him than with him.
I know its not my position to talk, but i just wish......
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